Thursday, October 18, 2012

My story

So I have posted a few blogs lately and realized I have never really posted my story. I am 28 years old and have led an extremely interesting life. I graduated from Brigham Young University-Idaho in 2006 with my bachelors in communication and from Southern Utah University in 2011 with my masters in professional communication. I love being with my family especially my nieces and nephews. I have had many grand adventures over the years from camping to triathlons.

I have also had my share of odd medical occurrences over my life time. I had seizures as a child that disappeared by the time I was in kindergarten. I caught viruses easily growing up. I had severe anemia when I was 19 which resulted in me fainting in a mall. I ended up with a fractured skull and subdural hematoma. I had my tonsils out when I was 21 which was the result of a severe infection. In 2008, I was diagnosed with asthma which gets difficult at times.

Things started getting medically weird when I was 26 and in grad school. I ended up going to the emergency room one night with chest palpitations and the feeling of racing heart. I was shaky when I get there but was released after a few hours with a holter monitor.  The holter test showed sinus tachycardia of unknown origin. An examination by a cardiologist showed a nodule on my thyroid, which he thought to be the cause of tachycardia form the nodule pressing on my trachea. The theory was confirmed and I had part of my thyroid removed in May of 2011. I am able to deal with the lack of thyroid hormone with only 75 mg of Synthroid.

The fall of 2011 was good for me. I was teaching adjunct at Utah Valley University, and working for two companies doing advertising and public relations. Then I started experiencing some neuromuscular symptoms in December. I had a virus at the end of November. By mid-December I started having muscle cramps and aches. I thought maybe it was just lingering symptoms from the virus.


Things got considerably worse in January when I couldn’t move my feet and was experiencing marked weakness. I went to my general physician who was the first to suggest I might have Guillan Barre. I was able to make an appointment with a neurologist two days latter.  I was having trouble balancing as a walked so I had to use a crutch that we happened to have around the house. I went to Dr. B that morning where he agreed that I might I have Guillian Barre. An EMG showed evidence of demyelination in my lower legs. I was admitted to the hospital. By the time I started IVIG treatment that night I can’t move my feet  and was supper weak in my legs. I also have extreme pain in my lower back, I continued with a total of five IVIG treatments and was able to make some progress with walking with the aid of a walker. There was some doubt to the diagnosis of GBS since there was not elevated protein in my CSF. I spent a total of 7 days in the hospital. I was lucky as the paralysis was arrested before it got above my waist. 

It's been a tough road since. I made some initial recovery, but in April I started to go downhill again with weakness, body jerks, muscle tightening, pain, and difficulty walking. I had urinary and bowel problems along with mild swallowing weakness. I have trouble sleeping through the night from the abnormal muscle tightening, pain, stomachaches and regurgitation. So I was referred to a new neurologist. After tons of tests she referred me back to my doctor with no answers. She did suggest physical therapy. I had had some in the hospital, but didn't continue it when I was released because of the doubts about the diagnosis. 

The physical therapy has done wonders for me. I have my strength for the most part back. I am still lacking the endurance. My neurologist, Dr. B, has found that I have abnormal EMG, mild dysmotility, and high levels of pyruvate. Some clues but no answers. He's not giving up on me though. 

So here is my symptoms right now:

Fatigue
Muscle pain
Ringing in the ears (only when I crash)
Tingling
Abnormal muscle tightening
Dysmotility 
Stomach pain
Regurgitation and reflux
Cold intolerance
Headaches
Migraines

The current theory is that I had Guillian Barre which has caused some mitochondrial issues to emerge. So we are currently treating my symptoms with the Mito cocktail and it seems to be helping. 


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Wednesday, October 10, 2012

Blue Sheep

I wrote a blog earlier about how having an undiagnosed condition can be lonely. I took a lonely walk this morning wishing I had someone by my side. I started out thinking the only way I was going to get some answers about my health was if I was dead and they preformed an autopsy. Then I walked by a herd of sheep and noticed that there was one who had his back spray painted blue. And then it hit me. I am the blue sheep within my family and social circle. I have similar capabilities to the other sheep, in fact I look just like the other sheep. But most people can't see that blue streak on my back. They don't know how hard I fight to be normal each day. They don't know what it feels like to loose out on dreams because others don't understand my blue streak.

For some reason I have a condition that sets me apart from the herd. It's not as apparent as someone who is in wheelchair or has cancer, but it is real. It causes me pain and fatigue. It causes my pyruvate acid to be abnormally high. It also causes me to feel disconnected from the rest of the world.

Just when I was starting to feel really low I saw another spray painted sheep wander out from behind a bush. I began to wonder how many other people out there feel just like I do. There must be others dealing with all the pain and stigmas that accompany having an undiagnosed condition. In that moment as I stared at the two blue sheep I knew that I could be ok if I could connect with other people who are experiencing the same fears and sadness that I felt. How do I find those other blue sheep to know that life doesn't have to fall apart just because I don't have a name to describe what's going on with my body? My hope is that through this blog I will be able to connect with others and form a support group. It's a lot easier to travel the path with a friend. It's a lot easier to face the fear of being undiagnosed with other blue sheep.